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I guess it has been awhile since I checked in. I am on day four, week two on the chantix. I am still smoking, but less than half what I was smoking.I don't know why everything has to be so hard for me. I hate these things. Why do they have such a hold on me. Everyone wants me to quit but instead of encouragement they act like I'm some kind of criminal because I haven't completely quit yet. I have been a heavy smoker for a long time and I think I am doing good. I will beat this!!
I got a letter today telling me my next CT scan is on the 29th of Oct. I can't help being a little nervous as this is my first 3month scan and in the back of my head I can't seem to get rid of the what if's.
Now my dear son informed me he is going back to Wyoming. I should have waited awhile to send him the bus ticket home but I am mom and missed him. I knew they would go back to each other, and I do want them to be together. I guess thats life. I guess I was hoping she would come back here.